Stranger

Have you ever felt like a stranger in your own body? Like the things you say and do are not anything you recognize that you would say, at least not from a you from before. Like maybe you've been taken over by some unseen force that only you noticed the changes, but you didn't notice them until they were so different so drastic and deviated so much from yourself that you did not even see you anymore but by then it was too late. No going back to the person you were before; before this unseen force came and took over. And is there no going back? Or can you some how go back to that person you used to be? Can you take yourself back from this unseen force and become the person you once were, or is that person lost forever?

Does this force take you over slowly so you don't even notice the changes? You don't even notice you loosing control, you can't see yourself slipping way. Or does it drag you kicking and screaming not wanting to let go of yourself? You can see yourself changing and you can't do anything about it, it drags you down like a ten foot wave beating you over and over again into submission, till there is no fight left.

Can you stop this force? Can you fight it away and keep you intact? Is there away to not loose yourself to this force that is so powerful, it can bring you to your knees in tears. It can knock the breath right out of your lunges and you don't even see it coming. It can sneak up on you when you least expect it, driving in the car, listening to music, watching tv, eating at a restaurant causing you pain you did not think you could feel. How do you fight something so powerful and stealthy?

And after it's done, after this force has gotten in and taken over, do you look in the mirror and see this stranger? Not the face that stares back at you but the thoughts you think, the emotions you have, the words you speak, the actions you do. You see the recognizable face looking at you in the mirror, the eyes that stare back, the lips the move the same way, but you still don't recognize this person in the mirror. This...this stranger.